[Tuesday, September 27, 2005]

today .. i went home alone ... the day begin with a very early morning .. cause i meeting my bro , cheng long ma ... i waited for him quite a long time then i decided to board the bus first ... then he called me saying he saw me and he is at the bus stop we suppose to meet ... then i wait for him at the bus stop around our school ... we walk to school and sat down ... hahaha ... day break very early .. around 6.45 the sun start to come out le ... then yckss student start to pour in like water and the silents have broken .. hahaha ... sound like EL compo hor ... hahaha then i think i'll skip to the last period ... it was physic lesson plus 1 ... all the 5NA students having the physic at the same time ... i ask Mr mah do i have to stay back for remedial ... then he say no need ... i was so happy ... then i msg cheng long ... ask him weather he wan to go home together ... but he nv reply ... he always nv reply my msg ... sometimes i msg the whole day then he reply only one msg ... haiz ... dunnoe what happen to him lah ... after school ... i rush to his class room and wait for him ... then he came out and say that he not sure .. he ask me to go home 1st ... hahaha ... then my mood start to deepen ... dunno why ... feel sad ... then i went home alone ... i msg him telling him i even argue with teacher whether i have to stay or not jus to go back with him ... then he say he not sure ... ask me to go home 1st ... well ... i felt i'm been kick away ... jus being kick away ... i think he maybe wanna to go out with the rest but i jus have the feeling ... kicked out .. haiz ... rushing to the classroom with all my excitment in my heart ... in the end i turn out going home alone ... hahaha ... so lonely ... truefully ... cheng long is the only person i think i can talk with ... he always listen to me as in listen me talking out my feelings ... but ... dunnoe man ... dunnoe wad is happening to me ... i'm jus so sad and lost of mood .... haiz ...

BYBlogger @ 3:14 PM

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[Sunday, September 25, 2005]

Well ... after so much of things happen ... i finally think of the brigther side ... thing may not always go according to ur way u wanted it to be so much ... sometimes it is very unexpected to happen .... sometimes it happen accordingly .. for my case ... it happen unexpected ... thats why it is a great blow to me ... Friends to me is = to my life ... without them ... i dunnoe how to carry on to live ... i love being with friends , talking about secerts , talking about girls , playing games , doing some exciting stuff ... i love doing that with my frieds ... but now ... i have lost those friends that is very important to me ... i have lost all of them ... so i guess this wont happen anymore then ... hahaha ... i'm happy to scare all the unhappiness away ... friends ... Even though u have choosen another friends whose is better then me, or u think there is someone better then me , or maybe u are growing up and the way u think have changed so having diiferent opinion about friends have gone .. but i would like to tell u .... those days that we have gone past ... is the most memorable days i ever had .... hope that goes to u too... hahaha ... wawoo ... finally feel much better ... ok ... lets move on to the next chapter of my life dude ... hahaha cant be always staying like this rite .... must look forward ... not backwards ... hahaha ....

BYBlogger @ 10:23 AM

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[Wednesday, September 21, 2005]

actually dun feel like writing blog ... but i have no choice but to write ... if not i going crazy ... problems ... anyone out there will there be any kind souls to help me ?? or be a listener ?? i now in a depression .... friends , school , work and also band .... i'm too tired and stress for 5 years ... settling my friends problem ... being there for my friends ... but none of them is always there to give me a hand ... even if they do ... i cant depend on them .... if there anyone out there will give me support ?? moral support ?? y mus have this prob ?? i'm too sick for it le ... always being blame , have to carry such a big burden at young age .... to many ppl out ther ... they may think it is nothing ... but to me ... i'm having a big burden .. God is there anyone out there to help me ??? or u testing the friendship of my friends ?? or u wanna try to see whether i can pass this ?? i need a friend that can support me along through this prob ... i'm tried .... haiz

BYBlogger @ 2:53 PM

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[Monday, September 19, 2005]

haha ... last week and this week having prelim .. hahaah finish almost more then half of the subject liao ... phew .... everything seems to be fine and can work out ... recently at home ... my mum wan me to go work ... but the problem is ... i having band too ... i have no time i guess ... hahaha .... In 1 week ... i have at least 4 days of band ... ssw , swo , yckss ... haiz ... i wanna work ... i think i have to work at nite lor ... hahaha ... i think wirk as part time first .... my whole family asking me to go work ... haiz ... so stressful ... recently having a bad dream ... dreaming me being stress over for work , band , concerto( main ), O level , friends and .... of cuz family stuff .... i have to work to help to support my mum in the house work ... and also if i work i must give her at least half of my salary ...maybe i should ask my band conductor about it ... see weather i can come for band 2 times a week ... now ... my family financial is in a deep shit man ... my bro have a laywer case to figth with ... my elder bro have not enough to give my mum ... and mum have to give the electricity bills and also phone bill .... haiz ... i now very stressful about my family ... the floorings need to be done ... ad that need money ... i also have to work to prepare for my poly school fees .... haiz ... i have to learn to work and survive for myself now .... i think i'll talk to my conductor about it ... hope that something will work out soon ... hope will work out soon ... stress ... stress ..... sob sob .. can someone comfort me ??? sob sob ....

BYBlogger @ 8:05 PM

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[Tuesday, September 13, 2005]

Recently .... my friends , the gang seems to have change alot ... they seems to be noticing me alot when i say i wan to book a chalet for them ... but i dunnoe when this will last but i dun wish to noe that they notice me only when i have chalet for them .. i really dun wish that ... at least for now ... erm ... things look much better then last time ... hahaha ... feel more happier now .. able to concentrate on the studies now ... i hope this will carry on forever .. hahaha ... hope to spend more time with them but only left with 109 days only ... 8 more weeks to O level ... hahaha ... study study study ... start to feel the stress and pressure on exams ... i scare i'll go crazy man ... hope the gang can help me mentally ... or at least give me mentally support ... i really hope so ... hahhaa ... some words for the gang if they reading it ... hey boyz ... thanks for ur accompany and moral support for me and i really dun wan to end my friendship with u all so much ... u are a bunch of guys that i ever have concern and care so much for ... so .. must remember to study hard ok ?? dun end up doing other things ah ...hahaha

BYBlogger @ 9:08 PM

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[Thursday, September 08, 2005]

hey guys ... a little changes ... FInal fantasy 12 will come out only 2006 hahaa ... sorry

BYBlogger @ 9:34 AM

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[Wednesday, September 07, 2005]

Hi ... good evening ... hahaa .... erm ..... well recently have been studying all day long and dun have the chance to spend time with my friends u noe .... but studies come 1st befor playing ma ... hahaa ... erm ... 11 weeks to finish me Os and i dunnoe my good friends ( the gang ) wanna spend time with me or not ahaha .... erm ... hope they will .... when i graduate ... i will come back and see them lah ... but ... cant see them that often liao ... in poly maybe no friends too .. hahaa ...

BYBlogger @ 8:25 PM

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[Friday, September 02, 2005]

When i got my new piece of entry proof today .... i realize exams is damn near then i thought .... time to study liao ... i knew that next week is holiday and i should spend every single day to study ... i muz make that effort .... after the holiday .... it will be the perlimary 2 examinations .... hahaha ... study study study ..... so remember ... study is good for ur life , its enrich ur life and also make u look more knowledgeable ... hahaha ... when exam time ... study ... study will enable u to go to a good school in the collage or ploytechnic ... so everyone who is reading my blog ... remember to study well ... if u dun study now ... u have no more chance to do it when u are old .... hahahaha .... with a O level certificate ... or any cert ... it help u to get a better jods ... believe it or not ... in switzerland ... a road weeper at have a diploma cert .... so we better go get a got study cert so a job will be safe ... hahahaha ... i have friends that usually dun study but when they went to outside world ... they find it very tough to fine a job and also in army ... if u have only a O level cert ... u will be bullied like hell ... so ... ppl out there gonna study ......

BYBlogger @ 11:40 PM

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