[Saturday, October 01, 2005]

hi ... blog again ... i miss all of them ... i really miss all of them .... i miss the time we have gone through ... the fun we go together .... talking about who we like ... doing some boy stuff ... playing together ... fun ... but ... do i have a choice ???? i have been very emotion recently ... sometime i can be hot tempered .. sometimes i can be very ricdiculars .... sometimes i very sad ... sometimes i very happy .... i dunno why like that...stress i guess ... result was very bad ... and shouting to my friends i dun feel good too u noe .... but wad is done cannot be undone rite ... everyone seems to be have a sign of hatred in me ... cuz i do too much of scolding ... hahaha .. maybe thats why ... well ... i do not have a chocie to do that ... i cant control my emotions ... hahaha ... it jus flow everytime ... i have no choice .... maybe seating down and talking things out may not be my favourite task ... but it have gone so far .... seating down and chat may make my emotions gone crazy .... i have been training them .... jus only recently ... but i not sure i can take care of them ... i have already given up ... maybe we are not fated to be friends for very long .... SHE maybe the one giving them happiness , fun , no stress and have leisure ... compare to HER ... in that group ... No One will stand for me .... when i say a word ... that word can bring depression to her ... but her doings ... have make a great impact to me ... none realise it .... so sad ... and i'm always being blame for harmimg her ... haiz ... no use lah ... the fate have wanted to end it ... we might jus do it ... soon i'll be forgotten ... and their memory do not have anything tha concern about me .... hahaha ... well beig forgotten is worst then death .... i dun wish to be forgotten ... but do it have a chocie ???

BYBlogger @ 9:02 PM

>>>> Darkess that truly taken over my life <<<<<